February is Heart Disease Aweness Month. I’ve never learned so much about the heart than I have this past month. Not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually too. But I’m not going to get into all of that today. Today I just want to encourage those who feel lonely. Many of us who face mental health challenges have moments when we believe no one understands, cares, or has a clue of what we deal with. And to a point that’s true. But today I read something that really amazed, encouraged, and was my anti-depressant.
1 Hear my prayer, O Lord, and let my cry come to You. 2 Hide not Your face from me in the day when I am in distress! Incline Your ear to me; in the day when I call, answer me speedily.
How many times do you just want someone to listen without judgment, partiality, opinion, and the like? How often do we not go to God because we feel that He doesn’t care, has thrown us to the wolves, etc.? It’s ok to desire and petition for God’s undivided attention. You need to know that He will, “Hear my prayer” and let your “cry” come to HIM. It’s also important that you know that He will not hide His face from you as if to say, “Oh boy, here comes …..” He doesn’t do that. Though sometimes we may feel like that.
It’s important for you to know that God is not like man that He should lie (Numbers 23:19). If He says you can come to Him about anything and everything He means just that. So stop being fearful. And just in case you are angry with HIM for "allowing me to go through this" then fine, be angry but don't sin. Remember, God was with you and brought you through your traumatic event(s) and wants you to be healed. Let’s move on.
At the end of verse 2 the author asks God to answer “speedily”. Like … right now… today… are my answer. The author pulls no punches with coming to God with their whole heart, earnestly, honestly and still respectfully.
But why did the author come in the first place? Because he was distressed, depressed, lonely, and even in physical pain “my flesh cleave to my bones”. Issues and triggers surround them and they felt overwhelmed. And because he realized that he could go to God about it ... about anything.Can you relate to the authors feelings? Verses 3 – 6 talks about how his life had become a mere existence and not living. Have you felt that way? Do you feel like that now?
You can’t sleep or your sleep pattern is totally thrown off and people are just a pain; taunting, judgmental, putting me down, etc. ‘They talk about me as if I don’t even exist.’ That’s kind of what the author is saying. Right? At least this is what it said to me. ‘I’m crying and it’s all Your fault!’ Did you see that in verse 10? Verse 11 is just like saying, “I’m a hot mess.”
One thing that I love about God and His word, it’s real talk. You see, just this morning I’m lying in bed talking to the LORD. I really didn’t know what to say to HIM. All I knew is that I needed my Daddy, my Abba Father. (See Mark 14:36; Romans 8:15; Galatians 4:6) I highlighted Romans 8:15 because that’s the verse that helps me remember who I am to God – His daughter. And guess what? You are His son/daughter too.
So as I’m lying in bed I pull the covers over my head and just let out a, “ugh!” and grab my pillow. Then He speaks. Yes, my friend, He speaks. To me He only spoke this scripture, “Psalm 102” and there I went. Needless to say I cried like a baby. He heard what I could not say. He knows the innermost part of my heart and understands. Yes, that is the message for me … and you… today.
The Books of Psalm has many divisions (not chapters) that talk about everything from military victory to God’s unending love to being in deep depression, feeling anxious fearful and alone. I want to encourage you to seek God. You will not just hear His voice but you will begin to understand His heart. The ultimate thing is that it helps you develop that Father/child relationship. That’s the most important thing – relationship; one that is healthy, sustainable, and worthy of our trust and devotion.
Today I sit typing these words because I am a person diagnosed with PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, and a few other things that I don’t even remember. But I do know this: God loves me and has a great plan for my life. He wants me to live and not die and proclaim His name, His work, and who He is to everyone who will listen to or read what I have to say. See, that’s my purpose. You too will not die but live and proclaim the works of the LORD. It doesn’t matter how. He’s already given you the vehicle to do it (dance, art, writing, speaking, woodworking, etc.). May be you’re not creative. That’s ok too. But there is something deep inside you waiting to come out.
So when you feel overwhelmed, alone, and that everyone has forgotten you, remember this prayer. Oh let me share this too. This is what led me to write this (long) blog.
One last thing. Don’t compare yourself to another person. That’s wasted energy. Look into the Word of God to find out who you really are. Everyone has a different testimony (story). We are all living epistles (letters). (See 2 Corinthians 3:2, 3) People need to see, read, hear our (your) story or letter. For those who are healed… hallelujah! For those who are still fighting the battle … hallelujah! No matter where you are in life God’s grace is sufficient for you. (2 Corinthians 12:8-10)
My friend (that’s you) I wish above all things that you prosper and be in (good) health; even as your soul prospers. (2 John 3:2)